Ooh, child...

...things are gonna get easier...

And they have. I may be speaking too soon here, getting the cart in front of the horse, counting my chickens before they're hatched, a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush...huh?? What? That one doesn't go! Oh well. It seemed to follow the animal cliche pattern...

I am feeling MUCH better. My weekend was wonderful. I had approximately 4 hours of "bad" time from Friday night to Monday morning. And that, my friends, is an effin' miracle. I even went to Applebee's on Sunday! Yes, I went to a restaurant and didn't get sick! Outstanding!! It was so nice to be a part of the functioning world.

On a serious note, husband and I had a conversation at Applebee's that really made me think about things. I was explaining to him all of the things that pregnancy has done to me thus far. I spoke mostly of mental and emotional things. I've been thinking of moments in my life, my WHOLE life...like from 5 years old to now, that were very significant that I may have blocked out or forgotten about or whatever. These memories seem to enter my brain just whenever they decide to. I'll be driving along and I'm suddenly thinking about one time when I was about 9 and I was soooo mad at my brother for bothering me and I yelled, "I HATE YOU!!" at him. And he immediately stopped what he was doing. He had the saddest look on his face. And he said, "Well, I don't hate you. And even if you made me mad, I would NEVER say that to you." And he left me alone. I got exactly what I wanted, yet I felt so bad about that. I've never forgotten that moment. I don't hate my brother. I love him lots! And I've never said, "I hate you." to anyone since.

It's these sort of memories that are bombarding me. It's almost like my brain is forcing me to put my life into perspective. It is frustrating, but I sort of welcome the memories. I've gotten so caught up in present life that I've forgotten or overlooked how past life has shaped me and made me a better person.

Being pregnant really is a life-altering event. I feel that having the baby will be a separate event...a more significant one. My friend Nicole sent me a MySpace comment that said, "Pregnancy is getting your ass kicked from the inside." And yes, Nicole, it is. I'm already taking a mental beating!! But things are definitely getting brighter.